I am in my third year of grad school. The year hubby and I said we'd finish. I imagine what's next and I feel peaceful, but looking at the road I want to barf. I am seeing job postings now, starting last week. They fill up a little spreadsheet I've created.
My weight is astronomically high. I guess that's what stressing all the time and having no personal time whatsoever do to you. I am working a job where I'm paid to do everything under the sun. I'm good at that. I'm over involved. I have a problem with that. Now their stresses are my stresses and I forget that I am one month away from my recital and French test, oh and teaching.
I have a lot of rough mornings. I think my diabetes is starting to present complications. How do I even think of that?
I've really been wanting a drink lately.
I have one year to accomplish the following in order:
Pass out of French
Pass music Ed 650
Pass independent study
Pass out of German
Pass written comps
Pass Oral comps
finish 70 page dissertation
Also apply for jobs, raise two children, teach classes, work part time job.
Can someone tell me that's possible? It doesn't feel possible.